Where have you been?

It has been a while, hasn't it?

There has been a lot going on lately. I know I have used that excuses a lot but there really has.

I haven't been feeling myself lately. A lot of it has to do with trying to figure out what God has for me and my family. We are not really sure so we keep pressing on in the things that we know He does want us in.

Have you ever felt like God has left you alone? Does this mean that He wants you to think about some things? Does He need you to come to some conclusions before He sculpts a little more?
Anyways, that is where I have been.

Today, I feel like God is still withholding some things and I have often felt alone. Not necessarily a bad alone but just alone. I have been trying to figure things out and have been mediating on things a little more than I should, probably. One thing that I have not done enough of is just sitting down and praying. Why not?-you ask. Not sure. Maybe, selfishness.
It has been a difficult time and I hope that it is almost over but I am not sure. I tend to think that there are still some things that the Lord is trying to teach us.

Please Father, teach us. May our selfishness not get in the way of what you want us to learn. Let us flee from sin and run to You.
~Hosh~