God, what are you up to?

For the first time in my career in ministry I don't know where God wants me to be.

The last couple of years I have sat right where He wanted me. This year is really different. I know a part of the picture but I don't know the whole thing. It is like sitting behind some lady with a big hat on in a movie theater. You can see most of the movie but feel like you are missing a part of it. Well the lady's hat is hugh this time.

Student Ministries is moving out of an attractional approach and into a missional approach. With that comes a lot of changes and a lot of role shifting. My role at work as Visual Artist does not change but gets a lot more time to plan out the small attractional portion - which is good. The bad part is I don't know where God wants me to be to fulfill the relational part of me. I love building into students and doing life with them. I would do it all day long if I could.

Here is where the rub comes in and I will try to make this short. I feel (not necessarily know) that God is leading me to become a youth pastor. Knowing that, I want to be a missional pastor (in charge of leading a local high school toward being like Christ) for Student Ministries this year. Keep in mind that that will take a lot of time outside of the visual artist role. Because I am the visual artist at a church I don't make quite enough to support my family so I have a side business that takes time outside of the visual artist role. Do you see where I am going with this? I just don't have enough time (so it seems) to balance a missional pastor role, the visual artist role and the side business. I am really frustrated with all of this and I don't know what God is up to. One thing that I am learning through all of this is that I need to wait on God. I really need to wait............................................... to see what He has in store.

I know there are some that might read this and not have the whole God thing figured out and think I am just nuts, but God really is in charge you know. God has a plan for each and everyone of us. Who do you think invented gravity and keeps it going?

I covet your prayers and meditations on this.

Searching for God's wisdom,
~Hosh~