Patience

Do you have patience? Think about it for a minute. Do you? Are you able to go with the flow? When something doesn't go your way, do you get all hot and bothered by it? Well, I do. I have what people like to call a "Short fuse" sometimes. I am not sure if it is a genetic thing, like I got it from my dad or grandpa. I know that my dad deals with it but I never really noticed it in my Dad's father. I wonder if you just grow out of it? As the days go by and more and more things bother you, then all of the sudden you come to the top of the belle curve and wam-o your are on the way down? I guess I will never know until I get there. I hope that I am not an old sour-pus (spelling?) when I get old. Not to say that my dad is but he does struggle with it too.
Ok so I know that I deal with anger. Realization of that is half the battle right? I hope so. What I have found though is that it comes and goes in seasons. Sometime everything is peachy and there are other time when nothing at all will set me off. Why is that? Is it the Devil attacking me when I am doing well in another area? Is it because of my surroundings? Is it because I now have an Xbox? I don't know if I will ever know. What I do know is that Prayer is the answer and the cause of frustrations. Now I am not saying that God causes my anger. Being Human, I was born with it. What I am saying is that if you pray for patience, look out! Seems as though the more I pray for patience the more trails come along to make me angry. Is this God letting these things happen to help me learn patience? Are they happening so that I have an opportunity to flex my patience muscle? In more ways than one I think so. Once the trial happens I have a choice: To get angry or to let it roll off my back. You are also faced with a choice. What will you do?
~Hosh~